Goodnight Moon. Goodnight CPAP.

My life has been kind of a hot mess lately and I’m not even completely sure way. I think it’s because I’m starting to make some big decisions and a lot of things are changing. I’m going to have a thyroid “procedure” done and I’m making a huge career change. I’ll talk more about those in another post. This post is about my CPAP.

I’ve known for awhile that I might have sleep apnea, I just didn’t do anything about it (stupid I know). I just didn’t want to have to go to a sleep center and I definitely didn’t want to have to use a machine. I’d starting having symptoms a few months ago.: the chronic fatigue, feeling like I’ve been holding my breath under water when I wake up in the morning, brain fog, trouble remembering things, etc. It also doesn’t help that both my dad and my mom’s mom have it. Double whammy. I finally decided to go to my doctor because I just couldn’t handle it anymore (especially not with all my other thyroid related problems). I told my doctor and he was like yeah you probably have it. My grandma and dad were both patients of his.

I was relieved when he told me I didn’t have to go to a sleep center (I hate not sleeping in my own bed). He said that a sleep study company would mail me a device that monitors my sleep and then I just mail it back. Super easy! That’s exactly what they did. I got it in the mail and had to use it for 3 nights in a row. There was a tube that went under my nose, a sensor on my finger, and a sensor that wrapped around my chest. All three plugged into a box that strapped to my wrist. When a sensor would move out of place, the box on my wrist would say “cannot detect chest sensor” and wake me up. The first night it did this several times. Like how are supposed to monitor my sleep if you won’t let me sleep? So rude.

After I was finished with the sleep test, I mailed it back and then had an appointment with my doctor. He confirmed that I had mild sleep apnea. Yay! Not. A week later a guy came to my house with my new CPAP and showed me how to use it. I have had such a horrible time trying to use this thing. First of all, I’m highly claustrophobic. I thought that getting the nose pillow wouldn’t be bad. Nope. I was wrong. With the nose pillow you have to also wear a chin strap (for the first few weeks) that keeps your mouth closed. Your mouth has to stay closed in order to create a seal. If your mouth is open then the air is getting out and defeating the whole purpose of the CPAP. I already sleep with ear plugs because I’m a light sleeper. I also have to sleep in complete darkness. Earplugs + complete darkness + chin strap + nose tube = I feel like I’m being buried alive. Then sets in the claustrophobia and anxiety.  I ended up having to sleep with a lamp on to ease some of the anxiety of feeling like I was being buried. I has helped and made it easier to sleep with the thing. Two other things that haven’t help: my nose is stuffy and the nostril pieces hurt my nose. I forgot that my nose gets stuffy with my sinus infections that I get quite often. That’s going to be a problem. I also noticed that because of that I alternate between mouth and nose breathing. I’ve been waking up feeling like I’m suffocating. I’m going to call them this week to see if I can switch to one that covers my nose and mouth. I don’t know how that will do with my claustrophobia, but it has to be better otherwise. In order to keep my machine covered by insurance, I have to use it consecutively for the first 30 days for at least 4 hours each day. I’ve been doing a lot of my time during the day while I’m watching TV so I don’t have to use it much at night. That’s bad, I know, but I’m going to have to do it until I get a different mask. I will keep you updated on how that goes.

Anyone else have to sleep with a CPAP?

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Book Review: Magnus Chase and the Gods of Asgard: Books 1 & 2

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I didn’t write a review for the first book, so this is a review for both “The Sword of Summer” and “The Hammer of Thor”.

These were actually my first Rick Riordan books, so I have nothing to compare them to. I don’t need to compare them to anything though because they were so amazing! I’m pretty picky when it comes to the books I read so that’s say a lot. Here are the reasons why you should read the Magnus Chase series:

  1. The Main Character is Relatable:
    If the main character isn’t relatable, I have a hard time getting into the book. That was not the problem here. Magnus Chase was sarcastic, witty, and kind of a dork. Everything that I am. He also has a resemblance to Kurt Cobain (which it talks about in the book). There was never a time that I thought “Hmm, he’s kind of annoying”, which is sometimes I often think about main characters.
  2. Diverse Main Characters:
    One of the main characters is a Muslim that wears her hijab and prays 5 times a day. Another character is a deaf elf. The other characters learn sign language to communicate with him instead of treating him as an inconvenience. In book two a (magically) gender fluid character is introduced.
  3. There’s a Singing Sword:
    One of the supporting character’s is Magnus’s sword that can talk and sings top forty hits.
  4. No Mushy Romance:
    Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy some romance in a book, but I dislike the mushy/teenage angst romance. That’s often the risk I take with YA novels, but not in these books. This book focuses on action and friendship, like in Harry Potter.
  5. Never a Dull Moment:
    I had a hard time putting these books done. Alas, work and sleep are a thing so I had to sometimes. When I was reading, I was up late totally engrossed.
  6. Crossovers:
    I haven’t read any of Rick’s other books, but I have some friends that have. Magnus’s cousin Annabeth has a small role. She mentioned dealing with Greek and Roman gods/goddesses. I looked it up and it is Annabeth Chase from Percy Jackson. I thought that was interesting. Her parts are small in both books, but it looks like she will have a larger part in the third book. Percy Jackson will most likely make an appearance in the third book because he was mentioned in the second one (Annabeth wants to introduce him to Magnus). Now I definitely need to read the other series’.
  7. Norse Deities:
    If you haven’t guessed by the ‘Gods of Asgard’ part, this series is filled with Norse mythology. Riordan adds his own flair to the personalities of the gods and goddesses. Thor is addicted to Netflix and Heimdall (introduced in book two) likes to take selfies.

In conclusion this series was epic and you really need to read it. Like right meow. I give this book 5 stars. That’s rare for me, but it’s happening.

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Like a Surgeon

Every January I talk about how I’m going to become a better blogger. By the time February rolls around I realize that that’s a lie. I hope to change that this year. There are going to be a lot of changes. I have already started some. But first I’d like to catch you up on what’s been going on in my life.

As you know my thyroid hates me and has been plotting against me since 2012. At the end of 2015, I was taken off of the anti-thyroid medications that had been bogging me down for the previous 3 years. Not only were they cramping my style (because of like a thousand side effects), they were damaging my liver. My new Endo was like “Woah man! We need to take you off that crap like right meow.” Okay, she said it more professionally, but you get the idea. So she took me off the meds and I started seeing rainbows and cartoon birds everywhere I went. Well not really, but I was starting to feel better. I wasn’t as lethargic and I actually felt like doing things. My chronic back pain wasn’t as bad and I was able to go to the gym and work on my fitness with Fergie. Towards the end of the year, I had lost 30 pounds and I thought that it could only get better. Sike! I started feeling crappy again. My tremors were back and so was my lethargy and chronic pain. I shook my fists at the heavens and yelled “Why!?!” while rain poured on my face and dramatic music played in the background. I went back to my Endo so she could run some tests and charge me 5 million dollars. Her conclusion? I was hyperactive again. Not just a little, but super, turbo hyper active. My Graves antibodies were through the roof. They are supposed to be at 35 or lower. Mine were a little over 2,000. Yes, I used three zeros there. With this news she gave me two options: remove it with surgery or kill it with radioactive iodine. The second one seemed sketch, so I was like “yeah give me that surgery,yo.” Just kidding I don’t really talk like that, but you know what I mean. Another reason I picked the surgery was because my sister had it done lasted year and it turned out very well for her. Fast forward to today, I met with my surgeon. This was the same surgeon that my sister had, the one recommended to me by my Endo. He did an exam on my neck and said I didn’t have any nodules (which I already knew), nor did I have cancer (which I also already knew). He said that because I had neither, he didn’t think that I should get the surgery. That was a relief because I really didn’t want the surgery. That just left me with the sketch radioactive iodine. Rut row. The surgeon and I discussed it though and it actually doesn’t seem so bad. He said that there may be some side effects, but that they’d be temporary. I’d also have to get a hotel room for a few days because I couldn’t be around people. So for this treatment, I take a pill that kills my thyroid and then I get to avoid people for a few days. Sounds like a win for me. I also wont have to miss as much work as I had originally thought which is nice. A couple of downsides to not having the surgery is I won’t get to have a cool battle scar that matches my sister’s. I also won’t get to keep Lestrade (my thyroid) in a jar. Haha that would have been gross and I totally wouldn’t have done it? Now all I have to do is wait to hear from my Endo telling me when to come in and get the treatment. Hopefully soon so I can just get it over with. Well I think I’ve bored you enough for tonight. That’s pretty much all I’ve been up to. If I think of more I will make another post later. I’m also going to make some 2017 goal blog posts so look for those. For now, Adieu.

[Side note: how I named my thyroid Lestrade. Greg Lestrade from BBC Sherlock is played by Rupert Graves. I have Graves Disease that is causing my thyroid problems. Well I thought I was being funny at least.]

Update 10/4/16

I know, I know. I’m the worst at keeping up with this blog. I’ve jus been having so many bad days with my Hashimotos. Plus, I’m just getting over a sinus infection that I’ve had for like a month. I finally went to the doctor for it last week and he gave me an antibiotic for it. For the most part I’m feeling better.

Birthday

My dad’s birthday was on September 17th. All he wanted to do was walk around the flea market and then have dinner at my brother’s house. We only got to walk around the flea market for about an hour and a half because I had to go into work for a couple of appointments. I was able to find some good treasures though:

My favorite is the Venus de Milo statue. It was basically free. I do the owner’s hair and instead of paying me, she gives me store credit. I only do that with her because I love her store and I already shopped there way before I started doing her hair. I already owned The Proposal (my favorite movie btw), my dad borrowed it and misplaced it. He said he gave it back, but I recently just cleaned out my room very thoroughly and did not find it. Oh well it was only like a dollar so I bought it again. the complete 1st season of Fringe was only $6. I found out why when I started watching it. It skips a lot, but not too much that I can’t still enjoy it.

After my appointments, we drove out to my brother’s for din din. We had hamburgers and I got to spend some time with my cute nephew.

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Mabon

I didn’t really do much for Mabon. I was still feeling gross from my sinus infection. I did set up a little outside altar and gave thanks.

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Dog Sitting

I did some dog sitting for my neighbor. Her dogs are weird, but cute. They’re also super cuddly.

Skateboarding

My brother took my 3 year old nephew to the skate park. He had bought him a skateboard for his birthday last year.

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Another Birthday

It was also my Gangy’s birthday last month. Alright, she’s not really my Gangy. She’s actually a neighbor that I take care of while her daughter is out of town. Her daughter does dog shows and is gone for several days at a time. While she’s gone, I’ll go over and cook breakfast and dinner for her mother (my “Gangy”). She can do everything else by herself, she’s just partially blind and can’t see the numbers on the stove/microwave. I call her my Gangy because she’s a lot nicer than my real one. Anyway, her daughter invited me to go out to lunch with them for her birthday. We went to Pisces Rising in Mount Dora. It was over priced for small portions of sub-par food. Good thing I wasn’t paying! It sure was a beautiful day though.

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Well that’s how my September went. I’m excited that October is here. I can’t wait until Samhain/Halloween.

Art in St. Pete

This past Saturday my mom invited me to go to St. Pete with her. Her friend was having an art show and my mom wanted to support her. We didn’t end up leaving until 2pm and it’s about a 2 bout drive for us so we decided to just spend the night down there. We only spent about an hour at the art show because it was hot and the gallery didn’t have A/C. The gallery was in the art district of downtown St. Pete so when we left we drove around looking at all the murals.

This Tesla mural was by far my favorite. One of the other artists at the show actually painted it. I forgot her name.

Here are some more murals we found around town. The octupi are my other favorites because they are my favorite animal.:

After we drove looking at murals, we decided to get something to eat . My mom’s friend suggested The Pizza Box because they had gluten free pizza.

It still had cheese on it so I still go a little sick afterwards, but totally worth it.

While we were waiting for a spot to open up at The Pizza Box, we HD walked around town A little. We came across this wall that said “Before I Die…”

There was a basket of chalk so we added what we wanted to do before we died. I put travel the world.

My mom put live in a van down by the river.

After dinner we stopped by Publix to get some treats. The Publix had was two stories. The first floor was parking and you had to ride an elevator to get to the store on the second floor. I thought it was pretty cool. Once we got to the motel, we just chilled. I watched Doctor Who while she watched whatever she watched. It was nice to have internet since we still don’t have it at home. 

The next day, check out wasn’t until noon so we slept in. That was nice since o usually can’t sleep in any bed that isn’t mine. The blanket was itchy and the A/C kept making weird noises. When we left we stopped At the beach. St. Pete is on the Gulf coast which I enjoy a lot more. 

We only spent about two hours there, then we headed home. Here are some more pictures from around town including a Thunderbird hotel for my fellow Potterheads:

Here some pictures on the drive home including an Air stream monument And Dino World:

Here is a giant Pokeball at a Target on the way there:

Hair supply store in the ghetto part of town:

And some cloud pictures. Can’t forget those:


We had a fun time and it was a nice little weekend trip. We definitely can’t wait to go back!

Life Update

Religion:

About a month ago I started going back to the Mormon church. I had been missing it lately. I like being back. I know it’s where I need to be. From now on you’ll see Mormon related posts. I’ll still post about other things so don’t worry. I’ll still keep some Pagan practices as well. I’m actually doing a 90 day Book of Mormon challenge on my Instagram if you want to join in. My IG is @ldsgingerasrai.

Health:.

I don’t think I ever updated you on my thyroid levels. I went to my general physician and Endocrinologist and they both told me that my levels are normal! That’s awesome news. I still notice symptoms from my Hashimotos, but I have a lot more good days then bad days now. I really think that it was my Graves medication (Methimozole) that kept me sick. My new Endo said that my old Endo was over medicating me. She took me off my meds at the beginning of the year and ever since then I have slowly started feeling better.

I still haven’t gone back to doing Whole 30, but I’m really trying. When you’re on it you have to cook every meal. But that’s been hard because I don’t have the energy most days. I know that if I go back on that I will have energy. It’s a vicious cycle. I also need to plan my meals better, that’s a huge part of it. I’ll get back to it though. I really want to start taking care of myself. I want to keep my thyroid levels normal and get my Hashimotos under control.

I have signed up at Planet Fitness 3 weeks ago. I really enjoy going (when I have the energy). I try to go even when i don’t have the energy, but some days it’s really bad. I did good the first week, but these past two weeks I’ve only been a few times. I’m still losing weight most days. I’ve lost a total of 24 pounds!

Family:

My sister has been on her mission for a month now. Only 17 months left! I miss her so much, but she is doing the Lord’s work. She’s really enjoying it. I knew she would, she’s a great missionary.

On July 30th, my nephew Carter turned 3. I can’t believe how big he is getting! He’s such a character.

Follow the Yellow Brick Road

As you may or may not know, I was raised Mormon. I’ve kind of become inactive over the past couple of years. My younger sister however, has stayed very active. She has even prepared to serve a mission. It was a bumpy road for her to prepare. She had also developed thyroid problems a couple of years ago. She was diagnosed with Graves Disease, Hashimotos, and Thyroiditis. She even had to have her thyroid removed. None of that discouraged her though and she submitted her mission papers of the summer. She got her call to Wichita, Kansas. She was very excited! She said she didn’t care where she went. She’d go wherever the Lord needed her to go.

She reported to the MTC over two weeks ago on Wednesday, August 3rd. My whole family dropped her off at the airport that Tuesday. It was very hard because we are all so close. We’re going to miss her very much, but she is doing the Lord’s work and we know she will be taken care of. She went to college for a year out in Utah, but that was different. We could talk to her on the phone. Now we only get to email and write her letters. We still get a call on Christmas Day and Mother’s day. It’s going to be hard, but we’ll get through it. It’s only for a year and half. She’ll receive blessings because of it and she’s doing good things.

Here’s a picture of she and I before she boarded her plane. Please excuse my hot mess hair.

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Here she is with my brother, sister-in-law, and nephew. My nephew was upset that he couldn’t go with Jensen.13886434_10208551968293508_8417478633378716193_n

Here she is holding her mission call. Wichita, Kansas!

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 This is her Wizard of Of themed farewell cake. 

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